Those I hurt the most.

I had no connections; I had let go of all my friends or anyone that was closed to me. I built the habit of pushing people away, a habit I’m still working on.

I was comfortable with being alone, it was easy for me to keep all my frustrations, all my feelings and everything else to myself. I never liked the idea of informing people of my issues. I loved and still love keeping people out of my business, it gives me a sense of security and privacy that I wouldn’t be able to get from anyone else. There has been one or two people who have been able to enter that part of me & this is for you.

I know I made it difficult for you, I know it was not easy to deal with my roller-coaster of emotions, I know it wasn’t easy dealing with a fast changing mindset, I know it wasn’t easy dealing with someone who did not know what he wanted, I know it was difficult to make me see my potential, I know it was difficult to make me see the light at the end of the tunnel, I know it was difficult to care for someone who did not give a fuck about himself.

It’s because of you, because of you I’m in a better place, because of you I have an idea of the things I can do and the things that I want & you are a reason why I keep pushing and pushing. I promise to be a better me.

You left your mark in my heart.

My apologies.

This is for you.